Therapy 101: before it starts

So I'm doing an online therapy thing with Dr. Graham Peveller. It's relatively cheap, $45 a session, and hopefully I can get him to give me a letter for T within a month, because something needs to change, on the outside and maybe on the inside too.

I'm nervous and excited to be talking to someone other than my partner and this blog about all this. There's been so much going on in my head, so much self-consciousness, so much overthinking, that talking this out with an impartial party would be a good idea. Maybe he can help me figure some things out while trying to diagnose me with something I know I already have.

I'm pretty sure I should be terrified, I've always been scared of therapists because of what they might say about me, or if they're just gonna call me crazy and kick me out as some completely lost cause. But with this, I have to know, I have to go through this so I can begin this transition. I tried, but there's really no way around it. This needs to happen now and I'm confident enough to let it.

Mostly I'm just excited to get this started, though. It's the first step after coming out, and I'm taking it with confidence.